During this December, so much things happen. I guess writing up is only rather brief, I was really caught up with all the work and stuff.
So I had more time to bond with E44R, and I am extremely thankful for them. I just wish I had time and opportunities to spend with them and more, I guess I have other friends on my heart already. That is RP, we mix around, I guess sticking to one group is a good thing, you show your friends you stick with that you care, and the ones you can’t stick with that you don’t want to make fools out of them. And that is a matter of optimistic perspective and choice.
Having said that, I miss E56J and E37Q. My great buncha looneys, if you’re reading this and have not caught up with me, I hope you’re doing well guys. Miss the nonsense we had, and I just wanna tell you guys that in whatever class you are, make the best outta it. Like my class, they’re awesome people.
I also had a lot of projects on my hands. So I was really relieved that Bag-teria is over. Bag-teria is my church’s Christmas musical and I was responsible for co-ordinating and designing the foyer, for some pre-event experience. I must say it really made me feel like that is what I’ll be doing in the future in my job. It was great, it was bad and I loved it so much. Thank God for the attendance, the salvations, the redidcations and people who are interested. Yeah, Christmas is about Jesus. I think us christians spoilt the story for you people, some of us spoilt it. Christmas is a wonderful special seasons, its not about the gifts and all, its actually way wayyyyyy better. I hope you give it a hear you know? It’s the best thing I can give to you guys that mean so so much to me.
I had loads of fun with my closed and loved ones this holiday, no matter how short. and I thank God for that.
Well it’s the end of the year, and I confronted my unforgiving self. I spent so much time sulking and beating myself up this year, but I made it. All the heartaches, the anger, I feel so defeated. But I know today I am going to start overcoming them. I went for breakthrough retreat this year. Honestly, I was so afraid to go, I did not want to deal with my guilt. But I did, I did and I know its the beginning of an end. It’s gonna take me time to forgive myself of lost relationships, insults and disrespect. As a man I cannot take those, but I am learning. Tough to be a man, cos Calvin said it, no matter what God holds me responsible. It doesn’t help when I don’t know what to say and with my insecurities in my way.
I’m learning to forgive myself. So that I would allow God to forgive me. I know this is damn cliche but God is a BIG God, with a BIG Heart and His heart can manage to love me, forgive me, accept me with all that crap and care for me. And He does the same for EVERYONE, who acknowledges Him or not. That is a damn good reminder for me to let go and let God you know? It’s great to have that. That’s just awesome isn’t it.
Nice closure to the end of the year. I just hope that God, this year remind me that where I venture, You are there and help me Lord to be more interested in Your word. Amen.
Gonna read all my blogpost for the year now.
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